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Dear CR,

8282 by davichi, eff i am soo in love with that song right now :) haha. My current obsession?? Is True Blood!!! oooo my sing dao haha I feel like a twitard fan girl screaming for Edward Cullen -________- but seirously I really do like that show, I wish there were more than 2 seasons so I could just keep on watching it.

Other than that, compared to my emotional rocking that I was doing before, I have calmed down quite a lot. School is going...well I still don't know how quite to describe it. Truth be told, I do not like it. Honestly, I think it is because I see all my friends off at universities off having great times and meeting new people, but I am still here going to classes that I do not really care for too much. I am not blaming anyone but myself, I definitely should have tried harder in high school, but I could throw shoulda, coulda, wouldas all day long but it would not change a single thing. So I hope that I can keep on keeping on, although I am not too sure if I am capable of self-motivating myself =/ Family...is pretty good too. I am still aware of financial problems my parents deal with, and God bless them, they put on a facade and try their hardest to be strong for us and I love them so much for that. My texas family is going through their own thing, but I know that they will be ok, they are strong and great people. Me?... haha you know me, I am always going through some drama or shit. Like I said before, I feel like I have calmed down a lot, although I do have waves of it that come back, but I deal with them as the come. I still miss her a lot alot, talking and such is not the same anymore, I know if I let myself think that it is the same, then the feelings that I have been trying to suppress will all come out. That is the thing that I think I am realizing, that the feelings will never really go away, I just have to learn to pack them in to a box...a very special box, and keep them inside; only taking them out to "smell" them, by keeping them in a box and revisitng every once in a while... it saves it. Who knows? Next week I might be sulking all over again.

One thing that keeps me going, is something that I realized everyone should do. And if I remind myself of it, I try a little harder and it makes me feel better...

so Live High and Love Unconditionally

David